Haven't updated in awhile but I figured I would just to get some thoughts off my mind.
Is it really worth it to date a friend's ex? Even if the relationship was an online one and lasted only two weeks? I only ask that because it happened to me. My friend hooked up with my online ex...It happened in 2008 but it's still a wound that is so fresh in my mind and in my being as a whole. They are no longer together either but I still find myself wondering everytime they talk if it will eventually one day go back....After almost four years it still one thing that bugs me. I am always fine when they go without talking but when they start talking I become some weird psycho in my mind with stupid paranoid thoughts. I hate to admit that about myself but it's true. I guess I am also partly jealous too..not because I like either romantically but because I feel as if their relationship is stronger then my relationship with either of them. I feel like a third wheel when they are friends and talking. Maybe because sometimes that is the case...I mean it could be my paranoia talking right now but there are times when it does seem like my friend is closer to my ex then she is with me. And I guess right now what isn't helping is the fact that my ex wants to meet my friend in person....I never expected that to ever happen and I never expected myself not to be okay with it. I'm not okay with the thought of them meeting...I'm not okay, therefore I have a problem. I can only hope they don't meet up....selfish I know but I am only human.
